So back from my hiatus I was inspired by a post that I wrote this time last year and as I was reading this post it really spoke to me. As I prepare one week from today to turn 37 my born day, my birthday. I really had to look back and look at all the things that I have endured at the age of 36. Then it dawned on me Felicia through it all you have grown, you have so much to be thankful for. It seemed like during this year I had more bad days than good days. But honestly it was through all those crazy days that I was able to truly define who I am, able to really see what God has in store, really able to see how my life is a testimony for others. See we often times think of this image of what a healthy life looks like but what we fail to realize healthy doesn’t just mean outward appearance but are you healthy from the inside out. So in celebration of my life I wanted to recap my past year so you can see that even while you are going through it may seem like there is no light at the end of the tunnel; it is there you just have to be patient.
Recap of Year 36
This is NOT OK
So on last year during this time of the year I was running my long run of 13 miles with my #runhomie and it just seemed like nothing that morning was going right. I had to stop several times to use the restroom, the gas station I normally stop at the employee was on break so I couldn’t use the restroom; so I had to proceed on with my run. If you have ever tried to run and you have to use the restroom then you know what I am talking about, not the best feeling ever. Then as I was running my heel begin to bother me; well at first I was like it just seems tight so I will keep running to see if it loosens up; well it did. Then I proceeded to run and it did just that it started to loosen up so I began to think okay well this is not going to be as bad as I thought.
Ummmm I was rudely awakened
I get about at the half way point of the run and of course we are out there so the only back is to just walk all the way back or run back. So I proceeded to run back.
Then it happened
I get back to my car and when I stopped I could feel it. It was not good, I was not okay.
So then I did what was the right thing to do, I went to the doctor and they told me I had a heel spur and also plantar fascitis.
I said to myself really not something else again, my exact words were, “Why can I not be GREAT?
So at this point I felt like there was so much going on in my life, from single motherhood to dealing with beginning stages of divorce, managing a job, two girls, one income, training and just LIFE.
I was forced to face reality, I was forced to say Fe you are not okay but guess what you will be okay.
So I began to start the healing process, began doing rehab and just trying to battle my way back. I knew I had other races lined up for the rest of the year and also the beginning of the year.
So I did what doctors ordered and when it was time I battled back. Well meanwhile during all this time of course life doesn’t just throw you one lemon but several lemons. So after completing all the races I was signed up for I finally said enough is enough Felicia it is time to really focus on you and get healthy. So I spent 6 months through physical therapy all while going through so many changes in my life….new job, selling my home, new home, divorce and just simply motherhood. I mean you name it everything that you can imagine someone going through I was going through it all. But one thing that I kept telling myself is that Felicia it will be okay. It is okay if it seems like your life is a mess right now. It doesn’t mean that you are going to always stay in that state.
See we all have this thing called pride that often times we have to face. We are ashamed of saying,
“You know what I am struggling today.”
“You know what I am having an OFF day today”
“You know what I am not OK at this moment”
What makes us stronger is the ability to recognize that and know that we will not be in that state very long.
To know that there is HOPE
To know that everything will be OK
To know that it is okay to have those days
To know that it is those days that help build us, help make us stronger
So what did I learn?
I learn that it is okay to not be OK.
It is okay to have an OFF day.
It is okay to say I am having an OFF day.
It is okay to say I am struggling right now.
What else did I learn?
It is when we face that everything is not OK that is when we BUILD when we get STRONGER and that is when we begin to have HOPE that even though at this very moment in time it may not be okay but I know that everything will be okay.
So here is to this craziness called Life, to lessons learn, to overcoming battles. Despite how things may seem or just seems like you can’t catch a break. It’s okay to not be okay the key is to not stay in that place. Dust yourself off and keep moving forward.
So here is to 37 BABY… Why such a big meaning? 3 defines divine protection/guidance and 7 is completeness (both physically and spiritually) That is what Beyounique is all about is developing: STRONG MIND + STRONG SPIRIT= STRONG BODY (Completeness)
And that my friends is the equation for a HEALTHY LIFESTYLE